Knowledge is power. It’s what really separates an ordinary individual from an extraordinary one.  You don’t have to cure cancer or invent a Shamwow to be extraordinary; you just have to be different from the rest. Since GI Joe said it best and “knowing is half the battle” I guess knowing exactly what I want now is going to be hard to stick to, but I must!  Things in life really couldn’t be going any better as far as big picture goes.  Still, sometimes I find myself thinking back to the past and where I was from 2006-2009 and how life was so much different back then.  I thought I had it all figured out. To a point I guess I did.  Everything was on track and I was accomplishing every little thing that I had wanted all my life.   For some reason in my youth, I guess, I got restless and always thought there was more I should have or deserved. Looking back a couple years, I wrote something on this topic about this character flaw I have and now I think I might have overcome it. When things got stable I used to let my mind wander around and let me think that there could be more.  Now I don’t. I now realize that I want my life to be more like the way it was back then.  Stable.  No worries. I was content. I let my mind trick me into thinking I was bored and unhappy.  Now I don’t really know what else to blame except my own naivety.

Now I am a few years older, and a few years wiser, and I feel like I have come to grips with the reality of what I really want. Now I simply must find it. I am not going to let little things slide anymore. I have very clear goals for my career and personal life and I am tracking ahead of schedule to achieve those.  I just need one last piece of this puzzle to fit in to it. This time I will require it to fit in perfectly with no jamming or forcing. If it doesn’t fit perfectly I will simply try and find a better fitting piece. No more games and no more half settling, I am only reaching for the stars now! I know I have said it before but this time I mean it, as evidenced by my actions the last couple of months.  I am working on building the best me possible and slowly introducing others back into my life and it’s working out great. Much like how they are rebuilding ground zero in New York; I am rebuilding my life after it stood proudly in all its glory many years ago. And it will again. It’s going to be an interesting ride. I am excited to see where I wind up!

Let’s do this!